Driven by Destiny

Author:Falls, K.C. [Falls, K.C.]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2014-11-11T16:00:00+00:00

Chapter Five

We were nearly inseparable in the months that followed. The more I got to know Reggie, the more certain I became that he was right for me in so many ways. Apart from the mind-blowing sex, we discovered that we shared a common vision for my business. Reggie and Acme could easily provide the investment I needed to expand my fleet and fine tune my marketing. After Reggie scoured my books with a well-trained eye, he agreed that the return on Acme's investment would be more than justified.

But I remembered another perfect match with a man I had so much in common with and I held part of myself back. It wasn’t conscious, really. It was self preservation. At times it felt as if the better we were together, the more fearful I became.

One night he confronted me about it.

"You know, it’s really not fair to me."

"What’s not fair to you?"

"I can feel you keep part of you all to yourself. We’ve known each other for months. We’re very close to becoming functional partners. Is that what the problem is? Are you afraid of working together and sleeping together?"

"No." It was the truth. The business part of it seemed easy compared to the emotional part.

"But you are afraid of something."

"Yes, I am."

"Okay, I’ll respect that. I trust that when you’re ready you’ll tell me."

I guess we'd been seeing each other, pretty much constantly, when I finally told him the whole story of Sal and my divorce. I told him about the humiliation and total piece- of-shit worthlessness it had made me feel as a woman. I told him how I felt I couldn’t trust my own judgment.

He was sweet and sympathetic but he just couldn't resist getting in a crack about the drag queen.

"After the sight of your Italian Stallion sucking off the soul pole of that tranny it's a wonder you ever let another guy near you." I didn’t know whether to slap him or hug him.

"Trust me," I teased back, "I had my thoughts about you. But then I considered the military background and your . . . finesse with the equipment—very fine equipment I might add—I figured the drag queens were safe with you." It felt good to be able to actually make light of something that was so painful at the time. I felt I was finally and truly healing just by getting it off my chest.

We talked a lot. I mean a lot. He told me all about his experiences in the military. He took great pride in serving his country and his comrades in arms were like brothers to him. But the horror of war was something that had scarred him not just physically, but emotionally as well. When I began spending nights at his apartment in Manhattan, I witnessed more than one nightmare. He confessed that it was the nightmares that made him avoid getting close to a woman.

"A man should be able to get over it, you know?

"You can’t mean that. Do you think a woman would think less of you for it?"

"Actually, yes.

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